Wednesday, July 21, 2010


Things bad about today:
1. Went to bed at 12.30am last night, woke up at 1.10pm.
2. Still tired.
3. I hate my pills, they make me sad.
4. Mum's making me go to the doctor's in the morning.
5. MSN will not send my replies. -.-
6. Myspace is hiding my friends... -.-
7. Can't seem to write anything. Don't know why, inspiration is like almost zero. And I don't really want to do anything else.
8. Dropped a book on my foot, now it's hard to walk, even more than it is normally.
9. My internet keeps going down every time I try to do something. -.- If this posts, I'll be happy.
10. It took me nearly an hour just to find ONE document that had the most SIMPLE title in history.
11. I think I'm getting sick again.
12. -.- It's over 85*F and I'm still cold. >.<
13. I woke up from nightmares. I've had them almost every night for over two months.
14. Did I say I'm seeing the doctor tomorrow?
15. I don't know whether to cry or punch something right now. I don't know why, I've felt like this most of the past two weeks.
16. I miss: Eleven, Ana, Will, Karen, Kendra, Jye, Millie, CP, Master, Martha, Andrew, Nikki, Zack, Ceci, Lila, Rose, Rosey, Theta, Donna, Edward, Nan, River, Sarah, Stacie, AND so many more. Dx Some I've just talked to a few hours ago, some for over a year, but I miss them all the same. T_T Those I just spoke too, it feels like days ago. :( I MISS YOU.
17. Mum wants me to go to bed again in 40 minutes because of the doctor's tomorrow.
18. >.< The hospital dropped me as an outpatient and I'm getting worse.
19. I just want to sleep all the time.
20. Sun hurts badly. >.<
21. I feel like I've lost something.
22. I can't turn my neck and my wrist hurts. :(

I could keep going. But well, wouldn't want to make anyone sad. :( Just needed to blow off steam.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

This is my 50th Post

As the title says, this is my 50th post, so I thought I'd dedicate it to my Universe Seeker. ,

The Last few months have been hard on the both of us. I don't know about her, but really has for me. Sometimes it feels like I'm crumbling because it's just been so hard. The Doctors. School. Lots of things.

I've been getting sad, way too much, I can't help it. Again, just too much. I've been sad, but I haven't been because of anyone but the Doctors. 

I will disappear from IM, because I just don't want to talk, but knowing that my Universe Seeker cares and is worried, makes me feel better. Even if worrying can make someone sick. I'm sorry if there were any times I hurt or made my Universe Seeker sad. I didn't mean it. Never meant it. Even if I just want to hide away in my little 'box' and she still tries to offer her hand.  

And I thank her.
I thank her for everything. 
She probably knows me better than anyone.
I wish there was more to say then just thank you.

Universe Seekers watching up the sky
with hope always...


Piano Music! 

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Father's Day Cake

I killed my 'D' in day. And -.- I couldn't get black icing for the soccer balls. So I used red since my father's favourite football team is Arsenal.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010


Day in day out
I try to hide the pout,
behind my eyes 
knowing your gone yet another day.

You told me to keep fightin'
Yet I wouldn't listen
Look at me now
As I fall into the oblivion.

Consumed by pain.
Blinded by darkness.
I look for your hand.
A hand that gave a second chance.

If I Ever

If I ever created a Zombie Army, these three people would be the first I'd convert.
The Tenth Doctor
The Eleventh Doctor.
Then the Master

The Master as our leader!!


Thursday, June 3, 2010


I sometimes wonder
how much is left
before I go...

Fallin' falling
into Dark Darkness
Into a dark abyss. 

-shrugs- Don't ask. 

Sunday, May 23, 2010

New Cake

New Cake:

Monday, May 17, 2010


Answer to the Brainteaser: You die...

Things I often Ponder: 

1. If man is responsible for inventing the computer, then who is responsible for an invention a computer invented?
What happens when a computer invents something, like say a robot for starters? What does that mean? Does the person who built the robot get the credit of the little tin man? I mean the robot obviously had creativity, so the makes him living (to me), so shouldn't he?

2. When you think about artificial intelligence or aliens from another world, do you ever find yourself scared?
In truth, I do. Yeah, I might sound like a nutter, but yeah I do. 

3. When you look at the stars do you ever get the feeling someone's looking back at you?
Yes and it give me the creeps. o.o

Don't ask. -.- Bit spacey, lots of stress, worried, scared, angry, annoyed, sick. I think I'm going crazy.

Sunday, May 9, 2010


If you die in the dream you wake up in reality. 
If you die in reality, what happens then?

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Brain Teaser

The more you take, the more you leave behind.

What are they?

[Check tomorrow for the answer]

Saturday, May 1, 2010

I love this... o.o

It's an unreleased Doctor Who song:

Friday, April 30, 2010

Don't Stop Believing

Don't Stop Believing
By: Journey

Just a small town girl
Livin' in a lonely world
She took the midnight train
Goin' anywhere
Just a city boy
Born and raised in South Detroit
He took the midnight train
Goin' anywhere

A singer in a smokey room
A smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on

Sunday, April 25, 2010

It's Official

I've officially screamed because of Doctor Who.

T.T I'm so sad. xD

I think I'd best hide next week other wise my dad will tease me to death if he catches me screaming.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Wednesday, April 21, 2010


By Kira Wilfort

I found a Rose Today.
It was white leaves
I gave it to a child who grieves,
who didn't deserve to grieve.

I found a yellow rose yesterday. 
I gave it to my friend called May.

I found a Rose of red.
It was torn to shreads.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Thanks to a few friends...

I'm officially into...again these:

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Should I Stay?

"Should I Stay?"
By Gabrielle

Here I am, waiting for a sign, I never seem to know
If you want me in your life, where do I stand
I just don't know
I never feel I know you
'Cause you blow hot and you blow cold, it seems I've grown attached
Though we're not the perfect match
I just can't explain


found via Google Search

I heard somewhere about a meaning about doves. Other than meaning peace. 

Some people like to give one dove as a gift to symbolize every lasting friendship.

Some say seeing a dove will bring good luck.

I think doves are all of that. Most of all beautiful. :)

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Writer's Block XD

What would you do if your pet dog or cat suddenly started to talk to you, but nobody else could hear it? Would you assume you'd gone mad or simply be happy for the company? Would you try to convince your friends and family or would you be satisfied keeping it to yourself? 

Don't ask why I picked that I just thought it was funny. XD

o.o If my birds started talking to me and I was the only one who could hear them...I think...I really need to get outside more. 

Simple as that.
And maybe see a doctor. o.o

This is cute: ^_^
found via Google search

Wednesday, April 14, 2010


I was actually reading someone else's blog when I started thinking about this:
Last Saturday, I think it was, I was at Ralph's Super Market. We were walking down the Milk/Dairy items isle. There was this little boy, tugging on his mother's shirt, holding some sort of box. It made me start thinking. So many children out there, how many tell their parents that they love them? How many times have you walked in the store, down the street, or past a Elementary School have you ever heard a child telling his or her parents that he/she loves them. How many times? On my way to school of a morning, I pass, well used to pass by an Elementary school, never once did I see a child kiss his mother good-bye or even hug her. In fact I just saw them run off to play, and once a kid swear at his father, then run off. 

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Tarea de español xD

Yeah, part of my Spanish homework was to take pictures of things I use in the bathroom and match them to my vocab words. XD Here's the result!! 

el cepillo (and my foot xD)

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Quotes (Spanish and English)

"Friends are once in a life time chances, make them last a lifetime." - Me 
"La medida del amor es amar sin medida." - San Agustín (In English: The measure of love is to love without measure.)

"El mayor obstáculo para el amor es el temor secreto de no ser dignos de ser amados." - Juan Pablo Valdés (English: The biggest obstacle to love is the fear of not being lovable.)

Friday, April 9, 2010


As a child, 
I'd run after birds,
though fields of grass growing wild.

Up, went the birds.
Up, into the sky.
Oh how beautiful they fly.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

¿Por qué?

¿Por qué es la vida difícil?
¿Por qué la gente odia la gente?
¿Por qué hay violencia?
Tengo muchas preguntas,
No pueden ser contestar.
Me hacen triste. 
Viva la vida ser contestar. 

Es dificil no fácil, pero tengo la esperanza de días buenos y mis amigos y mi familia. 

Necesito mi familia:
mi mamá, mi papá, mi hermanita, mi tía, mis tíos y mi abuela. 
Necesito mis amigos:
Ana, Jyé, Millie, Ceci, Zack, Tyler, y más personas que no puedo ver o visitar. 
Los extraño.
Me siento solo sin ellos.

No quiero dejar de verlos.
No quiero para oírles decir adiós.
Mi familia y mis amigos son mi vida.

Lo siento si estoy triste.
Lo siento si no hablo.
Lo siento si quejo.
Lo siento.

¿Por qué es la vida dificil?

Buenas noches.
Buenos días.
Buenos tardes.

I hope this said what I wanted to be said. >.< It seemed too. I'm not very good writing in Spanish but I tried. That's something right? I don't know. 

Saturday, April 3, 2010


I made this for my mum's birthday, which was today (April 3rd). This is my first try at cake decorating. o.o My flowers didn't come out right and Walmart's didn't have my tips. >.< They had the bags not the tips for the bags. >.< I don't like Walmart now. >.<

My sister helped to put the candy flowers on it.

Friday, April 2, 2010

Absent Mindedness (Is that a word?)

Today I went with my family out shopping. Because my hamstring (ligaments at the back of your upper leg) in my right leg was hurting. My father thought I strained it, and for strains walking is a good thing. >.< Doesn't help. It still hurts to walk on it. Getting harder just to walk now. :(


River Flows in You

River Flows in You by Yiruma is one of my favourite songs I've ever heard. I started looking for it on Clarinet, then other instruments.
Original for Piano:


"History is time's way of preventing everything from happening at once" - from Doctor Who
o.o That's a very good quote! Sometimes I've wondered a lot and sometimes go into deep thought about. What happens if everything in history happened at once? 
o.o Chaos!! 
Yay for history. o.o
-.- I really think I should go to bed now. haha
Good night or good day to whoever's reading this!

Found via Google Search, not by me.

Really Random. XD

This is from a profile of mine (I role play the Doctor). This is a sample of one of my starters, it isn't my favourite, but I liked it.

The Doctor ran through the dark halls. The count down inside his head was at twenty seconds and he was still far from the TARDIS. He pushed his legs faster. He had to get back to the TARDIS before the Radion Drive Overload, or he'd die of Radiation Poisoning. The Overload would release so much radiation that even he couldn't survive the blast. Six seconds left, he was at the door, sticking the new-looking worn key into the old lock. Two second, his hearts were pounding as he set the TARDIS to go anywhere as long is was out of range of the blast. He raced around the console pulling levers and turning dials with occasionally flicking some switches. The TARDIS burst into life just as the countdown hit zero.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Sin Bandera

A varios cientos de kilómetros,
Puede tu voz darme calor igual que un sol,
Y siento como un cambio armónico
va componiendo una canción en mi interior,
Sé que seguirlo suena lógico.
Pero no olvido tu perfúme mágico,
Y en nuestro encuentro telefónico,
He recordado que estoy loco por tí.
Que todo el mundo cabe en el teléfono,
Que no hay distancias grandes para nuestro amor,
Que todo es perfecto,
Cuándo te siento,
Tan cerca aunque estés tan lejos

Entra En Mi Vida

Entra En Mi Vida
de Sin Bandera

Buenas noches, mucho gusto
era solo una chica mas
despues de cinco minutos ya
eras alguien especial
sin hablarme, sin tocarme
algo dentro se encendio
en tus ojos se hacia tarde
y me olvidaba del reloj.
Estos dias a tu lado
me enseñaron que en verdad
no hay tiempo de terminar
para comenzar a amar
siento algo tan profundo
que no tiene explicacion
no hay razon ni logica
en mi corazon.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

"You see all those stars? Each one of those represents a promise. All the time they shine the promise remains unbroken" -A Quote from Doctor Who

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Nothing I've Ever Known

"Nothing I've Ever Known"
By: Bryan Adams

Right now I feel - just like a leaf on a breeze
Who knows where it's blowin'
Who knows where it's goin'
I find myself somewhere I - I never thought I'd be
Going round in circles
Thinking about you and me
How do I expalin it when I don't know what to say
What do I do now - so much has changed

Nothing I have ever known - has made me feel this way
Nothing I have ever seen - has made me want to stay
but here I am - ready for you
I'm turnin', I'm fallin' - I hear my home callin'
Hey - I've never felt somethin's so strong - oh no
I'ts like nothing I've ever known

Feels Like Home

"Feels Like Home"
Chantal Kreviazuk

Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life

If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

Monday, March 22, 2010

"The brightest star is in your heart, let it shine by writing, drawing, painting it onto paper."
An image by me. Please do not steal.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Wait for Me

"Wait For Me"
Theory Of A Deadman

You are not alone tonight
Imagine me there, by your side
It's so hard to be here
So far away from you
I'm counting the days
'till I'm finally done
I'm counting them down
Yea one by one
It feels like forever
'til I return to you

But it helps me
On those lonely nights
It's that one thing
That keeps me alive
Knowing that you

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

I Love You, Always Forever

"I Love You Always Forever"
Donna Lewis

Feels like, I'm standing in a timeless dream 

Of light mists, of pale amber rose 
Feels like, I'm lost in a deep cloud of heavenly scent 
Touching, discovering you 

Those days, of warm rains come rushing back to me 
Miles of windless, summer night air 
Secret moments, shared in the heat of the afternoon 
Out of the stillness, soft spoken words 

Monday, March 15, 2010

Have You Ever?

Have you ever lied out on the cement staring at the sky,
watching the clouds go by, 
listening to the sounds of the birds chirping,
the sounds of the leaves singing, 
as the wind blows through them?

Clarinet (The Instrument I Play)

Again, this is just something nice. I play the Clarinet, it's the instrument I know how to play and I just love it. Only one problem, since I've been sick and my asthma it's really hard to play now. For one thing, asthma naturally constricts airways and another reason why it's harder is because with some Hiatal Hernias you can't breath with your lower lungs/abdomen and the Clarinet sounds better when playing from the lower lungs instead of upper. My Clarinet looks like the one in the video below, except that mine is most likely older. I've been playing for six years. When I joined up for band we got to chose which instruments to play. o.o Someone chose Electric Guitar. XD Or was that the year before? I can't really remember, but I think we got to chose from Piano (Sorry my love, though you still gotta teach me! XD), Saxophone, Flue, Trombone, Trumpet, Clarinet, Oboe and various other instruments, mainly wind instruments. I tried the flute, had perfect sound first time, but I liked the Clarinet best. Never knew why, just did. Of course then, I wasn't sick like I am now, so then I could play.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

“I am like a falling star who has finally found her place next to another in a lovely constellation, where we will sparkle in the heavens forever.”
-Amy Tan

My love is my brightest star. He is my Universe Seeker, my best friend, my boyfriend, my love, my angel, and so much more. I love him more than anyone.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

To my love.

To my love, 
who's both near and far,
you shine as bright at the evening star.
Yoo hold my heart in your hands,
even far across many lands,
forever and always.

Walking through dark hallways
in my dreams,
something happens and I feel the need to wake and scream,
but instead I cry because they made me so blue,
I look at your picture and think of you.
And I feel better.

This is kinda short, I know, but I'm really tired tonight. I had a really bad night for sleeping. I just wanted to say Happy Anniversary of being together my love (only he know what I mean hehe)! It's our eighth month together. But best of all I've known him for almost a year now. How time passes, eh? I love you my love!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Far From Where You Are

Far From Where You Are
By LifeHouse

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
So far away from where you are
Standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Hanging by a Moment

"Hanging by a Moment"
By Lifehouse

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you 

Monday, March 8, 2010


The girl stood out on the beach. It was January, winter, about five in the evening. The sun was setting a fiery red as is fell between the incoming rain clouds. The wind blew the salty sea air into the girls face, chilling her to the bone. She felt the cold more than anyone else. Even though she was wearing a croqueted sweater and a black sweat shirt over it with jeans, she was still cold as if she stood out there with nothing on.

Friday, March 5, 2010


Leaona Lewis

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

Saturday, February 20, 2010

The Promise (A rewrite)

The Promise
Tracy Chapman
An Edited Version by Myself for my love:

My blog

This is just a random blog to write. I'll dedicate it to my love, since he's the one made me better, in may ways, Though I'm always sick, he's always been there to make me smile. He encourages me to keep writing and to keep trying my best no matter what. He's been there, when no one else was and he still is. I cry a lot, from big things, little things, insignificant things, and pain, but he's still there talking to me and trying to make me smile all he can. He makes me strong. ^_^

If I could write a whoooole blog about him, I would, but I think people would get jealous, if I did, though I think I'd make my love smile and maybe just blush a little but if I did.

So anyways...I think this'll just be a random blog haha.

I may write somethings in Spanish because I can speak it, although I'm not very good as I'm still learning it, so please correct me if you find anything wrong. I'd really appreciate it. ^_^