Wednesday, July 21, 2010


Things bad about today:
1. Went to bed at 12.30am last night, woke up at 1.10pm.
2. Still tired.
3. I hate my pills, they make me sad.
4. Mum's making me go to the doctor's in the morning.
5. MSN will not send my replies. -.-
6. Myspace is hiding my friends... -.-
7. Can't seem to write anything. Don't know why, inspiration is like almost zero. And I don't really want to do anything else.
8. Dropped a book on my foot, now it's hard to walk, even more than it is normally.
9. My internet keeps going down every time I try to do something. -.- If this posts, I'll be happy.
10. It took me nearly an hour just to find ONE document that had the most SIMPLE title in history.
11. I think I'm getting sick again.
12. -.- It's over 85*F and I'm still cold. >.<
13. I woke up from nightmares. I've had them almost every night for over two months.
14. Did I say I'm seeing the doctor tomorrow?
15. I don't know whether to cry or punch something right now. I don't know why, I've felt like this most of the past two weeks.
16. I miss: Eleven, Ana, Will, Karen, Kendra, Jye, Millie, CP, Master, Martha, Andrew, Nikki, Zack, Ceci, Lila, Rose, Rosey, Theta, Donna, Edward, Nan, River, Sarah, Stacie, AND so many more. Dx Some I've just talked to a few hours ago, some for over a year, but I miss them all the same. T_T Those I just spoke too, it feels like days ago. :( I MISS YOU.
17. Mum wants me to go to bed again in 40 minutes because of the doctor's tomorrow.
18. >.< The hospital dropped me as an outpatient and I'm getting worse.
19. I just want to sleep all the time.
20. Sun hurts badly. >.<
21. I feel like I've lost something.
22. I can't turn my neck and my wrist hurts. :(

I could keep going. But well, wouldn't want to make anyone sad. :( Just needed to blow off steam.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

This is my 50th Post

As the title says, this is my 50th post, so I thought I'd dedicate it to my Universe Seeker. ,

The Last few months have been hard on the both of us. I don't know about her, but really has for me. Sometimes it feels like I'm crumbling because it's just been so hard. The Doctors. School. Lots of things.

I've been getting sad, way too much, I can't help it. Again, just too much. I've been sad, but I haven't been because of anyone but the Doctors. 

I will disappear from IM, because I just don't want to talk, but knowing that my Universe Seeker cares and is worried, makes me feel better. Even if worrying can make someone sick. I'm sorry if there were any times I hurt or made my Universe Seeker sad. I didn't mean it. Never meant it. Even if I just want to hide away in my little 'box' and she still tries to offer her hand.  

And I thank her.
I thank her for everything. 
She probably knows me better than anyone.
I wish there was more to say then just thank you.

Universe Seekers watching up the sky
with hope always...


Piano Music! 

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Father's Day Cake

I killed my 'D' in day. And -.- I couldn't get black icing for the soccer balls. So I used red since my father's favourite football team is Arsenal.